I must be selfish first before I can be any good for anybody
I’m imagining myself sinking each day, losing everything I’ve learned these past two years and throwing everything out the window. I’ve become too angry for my own good sometimes that I become blind to the actions or the mistakes that have led me to this position in the first place. The person who I used to be weighs me down with guilt that I thought I might get rid of but are slowly creeping back into my head as I sink. I can’t ever forget the lows I’ve experienced, because it is the single thing that balances my current highs. My struggles never kept me leveled. I can’t keep sinking, I can’t go back to it
I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.
— Haruki Murakami (via psych-facts)